Never mind.

Me and Phil are not on a break.

We are over.

As you read this, he is in Canada, probably fucking a high schooler he met over the internet, when he told me that he was just going to drive, maybe to Chicago, just to clear his head.

I hope she's worth the easy fuck, because I'm done. My heart can't take it anymore.

I wasn't completely right, but Jesus Christ, I did NOT deserve this.

He's a liar and he has been playing me for the fool and I want to hate him so bad, and I'm so angry at myself for taking him back in the first place.

I know the cliches; he doesn't deserve me, it's not your fault, all of that jazz....but I still love him, and I don't want to. I want to hate him. God.....

He kept on dragging me back, telling me that he loved me, that he wanted me, but he's just been lying to me, keeping me as a back-up plan, a Plan B, just in case it doesn't work out with him and her.

A month he had to tell me the truth. A month to just drop me. But no. No no no no no, that'd be too easy. It's a better plan just to break my heart over and over again.

I don't care anymore what people think about him.

It hurts too bad.